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BEST BABY BUYS

2011-05-04T09:02:00.001-07:00

OK.. Since many of my friends have either just had a baby or about to have one this is a list of things i feel are absolutely value for money and definitely things i find extremely useful...
1) A DOPPLER : for fetal montoring while its still in the womb! An amazing gadget with which u can listen to your babys hearbeat and movements much before its birth. This is specially useful if you tend to worry a lot ( which i did) so id just come back home from work..put some jelly on & listen to my baby's racing heartbeat! what a tharapeutic feeling for a nervous wreck like me! i used ANGELSOUNDS FETAL DOPPLER which i bought from ebay for about £25 n i could hear my baby from about 17 weeks of gestation :)
2) SWADDLE : Now everyone buys sleep bags, blankets etc but i found the best way to keep a newborn warm n comfortable is by swaddling.. the best ones i find are SwaddleMe.. a baby can kick out of the burrito wraps u make of them with blankets but its rather tricky for them to kick these out as they have velcro to stay in place.. they are made of pure cotton (even organic cotton) come in different prints n sizes. babies tend to have a startle reflex wch wakes them up as soon as u quietly put them to sleep.. but when they are swaddled they tend to feel they are still in mums womb and sleep soundly for longer periods. They say swaddling helps during colic as well! If u do buy blankets for swaddling or indoor use.. make sure they are pure breathable cottom or the ones with tiny holes for air to pass. Babies cant handle heat, it can be fatal!
3) INFACOL : lifesaver for parents when their baby has colic.. this medicine isnt a cure but it helps take the bubbles out of their lil ones tiny tummies without much pain.. administer dosage as stated on the pack! Available over the counter :)
4) CAR SEAT : A must have if your baby is being born in UK.. highly recommend that you dont go the ones suitable only for 6 months or a yr.. go for the ones that have an infant insert and can be used up until the baby is 18 kgs, so you dont need to buy a seat for every age group.. i use Britax First Class and V1 is already out of the infant insert n hes only 4+ months..
5) DROPSIDE COTBED : I used a Moses Basket & a crib until V1 was abt 4 months. I find it Much more useful than just a cot as it can convert to a toddler bed once the baby grows up to a toddler. Dropside? so its much easier to put the baby in the cot or pick him/her out of it n avoid bad backs..they only require a one hand mechanism to drop one side of the cot or put it back up for the babies safety.. specially when the baby is fast asleep n you dont want to wake them up..easy transit!
5) PACIFIERS : Now i know some people dont like the idea or hate giving it to their baby but hey sometimes babies just wanna suck as it soothes them n if ure a Bfeeding mum you've had it! I like Avent more than tommee tippee as it has separate covers for each dummy to keep em from dirt.
6) STERLISER : You need them to sterlise bottles teats dummies et. cI prefer electric ones than microwave ones as i am not a big microwave fan. I use tommee tippee n quite like it.
7) NAPPY DISPOSAL SYSTEM : Gr8 if youre using disposable nappies to fend off the bad smells they can have if just binned. I use tommee tippee n find it pretty usefull. It wraps up the disposed nappy individually and contains the smell within the bin.. only drawback you have to clear it every 2-3 days :) which i think is pretty hygenic as well.
8) NAIL CUTTER : I recommend tommee tippee grooming kit as it has everything you'l need. On an average a babies nails need to be cut every 7 to 10 days to avoid them scratch themselves.
9) BABY COSMETICS: Like shampoo, wash, moisturisers & creams. Highly recommend use of natural products as long as possible Burts Bees is gr8, in India Himalaya/ Chicco does a good range. Massage with either olive oil or (in India) Dabur Lall Tail ( found it to be really really good) ayurveda at its best! Preferably dont use talc and use a nappy cream with zinc to avoid rashes..Sudocrem works well.
10) BABY CARRIER : Apart form a buggy that u definitely require for going out n about you may consider buying a carrier as well. Baby tends to feel more secure in a carrier than a buggy so long as you can carry him/her. I use BABY BJORN a lovely gift from a lovely friend. V1 loves being close n warm n tends to sleep longer in this so i can carry on doing my grocery shopping easily!
11) BUMBO Babysitter : Its a baby seat available at most baby stores, ergonomical design helps baby sit without putting much pressure on their back. V1 is very happy sitting in it. i feel it helps him learn to control his head. It is also great for weaning him in, doesnt take up as much room as a high chair would. one should definitely buy a play tray to go with it :)
12) BABY MONITOR : Its a must if you cant afford a doula/nanny for 24hrs in london or if you can sit in front of the baby all the time, to monitor when you baby is up n requires your attention. I use LUVION PREMIUM DIGITAL BABY MONITOR which has a camera with superb night vision n i cant recommend it enough, its range is upto my neighbours back garden across the road!! :P
13) BAEBA BABYCOOK :A machine that steams n puries food for weaning babies when they are ready, u can buy the containers and cook book along with it or just get it free like i did from Kiddicare :) its expensive but its something invaluable when you see ur baby love the food u prepare! i think its superb esp the defrost mechanism. :) one cud also buy 'the wean machine' for food on the go but u cant puree everything in it.. only soft stuff..
14) TOYS, RATTLES, PLAYGYMS N MATS : Just one thing it should be washable or wipe clean!
15) MUSIC CDS, COT MOBILE : Superb to keep baby occupied n relaxed for a lil while, some babies go to sleep with them too.. sadly mine finds em' too exciting!

So far this is where ive reached as V1 is only about 5months old.. will write another one when i can as he grows up!

Having a baby truly changes your life for good, i never knew i could love someone so much until V1 came along and i cant thank god enough for giving him to me!

love n luck to you all!
Nams

To My Child

2011-04-12T11:08:00.000-07:00

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I'll let u choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning, I'm going to step over the laundry and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone andkeep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I wont worry about what you ar going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I've made where you're concerned. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I wont stand over you trying to fix them. Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonalds and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys. Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you. Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry. Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favourite TV shows. Just for this evening when I run my fingers through you hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that god has given me the greatest gift ever given. I will think about the mothes and fathers who are searching for their missing children , the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms. The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their child suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body. And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank god for you, and ask him for nothing, except for one more day............. love Mum :)

FINGER PRINTS

2011-01-26T04:29:00.000-08:00

I know you get discouraged
because I am so small
And always leave my Fingerprints
on the furniture and the walls.

But everyday I'm growing,
I'll be all grown up someday,
And all the smudgies that I did
will surely fade away.

So, here's another bunch of them
Just so you can recall
exactly how my fingers looked
when I was very small.

A Warm Winter Glow

2008-01-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

I inhaled the bitter cold air into my lungs.
I exhaled slowly and watched,
as the warm air of my breath became a white cloud before me.
I felt my nose getting cold.
I breathed on my cotton white gloves to warm my hands.
Squinting as I looked at the bright new coat of frost that blanketed the earth.
Frozen tree limbs…Snow covered bushes and hills…
The sounds of little icicles hitting each other.
A soft smile came over my face and I turned and looked at you.
I swiftly held your hand to seize the moment before it got away.
You smiled back and I knew
I'l forever be in your warm embrace :)

ENTWINED

2007-04-29T13:17:00.000-07:00

Laying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night,
Your arms are wrapped around me,
And everything feels right.

You kiss me sweet and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch,
You help me feel protected,
Under the sweet, night-sky rush

My world before me is perfect.
There's nowhere else I want to be,
Except laying underneath the stars
Hand in hand, you and me.

Just when everything is perfect,
And you seem so delicately sweet,
A rush of wind comes past me,
As I'm swept beneath my feet

Nothing could be more right,
There's nowhere else I want to be.
Let's take a walk, my only love,
Hand in hand, you and me

A Quest for Fire

2006-12-29T10:38:00.000-08:00

A seed growing from the womb.
Innocence lost in perilous doom.
Futures certain destiny.

Opened eyes unclear visions see.
Peer to heaven reach for the skies.
Wonder fills the innocent eye.
Fire sparks future dreams.
Doused by rushing waters streams.

Over rocky mountains crawl.
Taking in the wonder of it all.
Feeling, touching ,eyes open still.
Struggle exercising mans freewill.

Climbing up toward the sun.
Living only for life's fun.
Fire comes with the greatest price.
It only comes with sacrifice.

Waning years take there toll.
And kill the fire of the soul.
No longer a child but now a girl.
We look for warmth on lower land.

To fulfill the quest of girls desire.
To touch the sun and establish fire.
We find the answers deep within.
Woman's journey truly now begins.
The journey not meant to tread alone.

A love found had shown her the way home.
Fulfilled together dreams and desires.
Finally ending her quest for fire.

All that words can say.. on my wedding day

2006-09-13T02:19:00.000-07:00

I want you to know how much I care,
so with words I will try to share.
When I was young it was hard for me to say,
all the love I had for you and wanted to convey.
My one and only inspiration has always been you,
having faith in whatever you say and do.
Do you know the most rewarding thing about being your daughter?
Is that I know our love can never faulter.
I know nothing could ever happen between us that time couldn't fix,
It would burn at the very depth of my soul as I'd watch the clock tick.
The thing I think of at this second in time,
Is wanting to end with I LOVE YOU and knowing it won't rhyme.

The Poem

2006-09-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

For the poem to be the writer must see,
all the words that they know so
its magic will show.
We write about life and death with its pain,
how we all find the
courage to go on once again.
The poem can be short, tender, and sweet,
sending shivers of joy straight to your feet.
It can also be cruel, cutting straight to the
heart, with each word written playing its part.
It may reveal all the wonders and the beauty
of love,
two destiny's chosen by the good Lord above.
For the poem is a part of the person inside,
a piece of ourselves we choose not to hide.
so enjoy every word as it leaps from the page,
for the paper will soon fade
showing signs of its age.

i tried

2006-09-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

i tried to write a poem
about my love for you
so i could tell you how i feel
but i was'nt able to
i wanted you to know for sure
that i love you very much
and wanted words of poetry
your heart somehow to touch
i wanted you to know that i
adore you when you smile
and i always want to be with you
if only for a while
i hoped my poem would convey
what a part of me you are
and no matter where i may be now
thoughts of you are never far
my poem would have told you
of the joy inside my heart
and how it's always been
but the poem that i hoped to write
will forever be unread
and you will never know my thoughts
or the things i might have said

The Poets

2006-08-29T04:50:00.000-07:00

Why do young modern poets
Play with my ever fragile mind;
For is it not until you die,
That I should read your latest rhyme?

And why do you place in question
All that I at present believe?
If not to lead me yet further
Into doubt and uncertainty?

I, like so many before me,
Am never to decode your lines,
For anonymity is yours:
In ink and paper you do hide!

Often I think of those great men
Who in ancient times gave such grace
To this practice we now despise,
And in earnest try to erase.

But all who think would surely know
That unlike the monuments of time,
The poet's words are strangely sent;
They immortalize and never die!

So this final tribute is made
To all the Great Ones of our past;
In so doing is homage paid,
To all rhymes from first to last.

A boy n a girl.....

2006-08-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

Boy-i saw her today

girl-I saw him today

boy-it seems like it's been forever

girl-i wonder if he still cares

boy-she looks better than ever

girl-i couldn't stop staring at him

boy-i couldn't even look at her without crying

girl-he couldn't even look at me

boy-i asked her how things were going

girl-i asked him about his new girlfriend

boy-I'd pick her over any other girl

girl-he loves his new girlfriend

boy-i told her i miss her

girl-he didn't mean it

boy-i mean it

girl-he's probably really happy now

boy-i held her for the last time

girl-he gave me a friendly hug

boy-then i went home and cried

girl-then i went home and cried

boy-i lost her

girl-i love him.

A Late Good Night

2006-08-23T21:29:00.000-07:00

My lamp is out, my task is done,
And up the stair with lingering feet
I climb. The staircase clock strikes one.
Good night, my love! good night, my sweet!

My solitary room I gain.
A single star makes incomplete
The blackness of the window pane.
Good night, my love! good night, my sweet!

Dim and more dim its sparkle grows,
And ere my head the pillows meet,
My lids are fain themselves to close.
Good night, my love! good night, my sweet!

My lips no other words can say,
But still they murmur and repeat
To you, who slumber far away,
Good night, my love! good night, my sweet!

Romantic Love

2006-08-23T21:26:00.000-07:00

Romance is a must for most young hearts
Gestures of love broken in tiny parts
A dozen roses, a chocolate heart,
Writing a poem with all your heart,
A cute little card with x’s and o’s
Sittin’ by the fire warming your toes
A candle lit dinner down by the beach
You both come in a pair not in a peach
Long conversations late into the night
Love is there and romance is in sight
Just a bear hug for you just like this
Romance is also in just the right kiss…

A Letter Across the Miles

2006-08-22T01:53:00.000-07:00

The minute I opened my eyes this morning
The first thought on my mind was you
I laid there for a long while thinking
How I long to be with you

I thought of how beautiful it'd be
To welcome the morning sun in your arms
To look to my side and see
The sunshine of your smile

To extent my hand and reach for yours
To endlessly hold and caress
But instead I looked and found
The same old empty space

I closed my eyes and dried
The tears running down my cheeks
For it's the description of my loneliness
I see each time before me

It's the grief that my life lives
Knowing you are there
It's the secret that my heart extent
That I can not seem to bare

About a month more to go,
Is all what you say..
I'l sit here and wait,
For that glorious day!

A Close Distance

2006-08-22T01:33:00.000-07:00

I know two people with two separate lives,
Two minds living in two different worlds.
Two worlds that are felt, that are seen in the eyes,
In the eyes of one boy and one girl.

Two worlds. Two people with two hearts.
They know their worlds are apart.
Two worlds with one wish under the sun,
One wish that two worlds will be one.

Two worlds. Two souls with one destiny.
Two loves that were meant to be.
Two paths intertwined into one road.
Someday, they’ll have each other to hold.

If you look close, I think you’ll find
That those two worlds are yours and mine.
And even though we’re worlds apart,
Your whole world is in my heart.

My best friend..

2006-08-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

You were there.!
In my darkest moments of despair
You were there... to hold me tight
You said everything would be alright
... and it was.

When I wanted to be alone... you understood
You knew... and never left my side
You said you would never let go
... and never did.

When my spirit took flight
You were there... sharing my joy
You said I deserved every bit
... and I believed in you

Through the heartbreak and the tears
You were there... holding me in your arms
You said you will love me forever
.. and you still do

You always seem to touch my soul
To you I owe all the strength I feel.
Now looking back through it all ..
you stood by me when no one else did
And I want to say to you..
I love you .. My best friend..

A Beautiful Place

2006-08-20T03:48:00.000-07:00

The sun is so warm
and the wind is just right,
the green clovers are so soft
and the river is such a pretty sight.
Yellow and pink flowers
as far as the eye can see,
Its a very beautiful place,
its where everybody would want to be.
The trees rock so gently
back and fourth and all I do
is sit back and feel the warmth...
The warmth of the sun thats all it shall be,
the warmth of the sun
that was made for you and me.

A Lady of Poetic Reason

2006-08-20T03:40:00.000-07:00

Her words were soft like a summer breeze
Her thoughts as gentle as the wind
Printed or spoken to put the mind at ease
Emoting deep feelings from within
With love as her quest she sojourns through her rhyme
Telling wondrous tales passionately placed in time
As you read her thoughts on the printed page
The wisdom of lost love
Gentle passionate rage
You feel all the hurt
You bask in the warmth of her smile
She invites the curious hearted to stay for awhile
Caught up in the rapture of loves soft melody
You let yourself go easy and drift most gracefully
Easing through the fires of loves raging embrace
She dances with your inner soul
To a warm and caring place
With sweet poetic reason
She will slowly reel you in
With a smile warmed by the season
For true love to begin
There is no fear of leaving
True loving hearts they will stay
The lady of poetic reason
Her true love will show the way

A whisper you did not hear

2006-08-19T08:51:00.000-07:00

Your footprints on the sand
My footprints lost in yours
The spaces between my fingers
Without your hands are a loss
Your smile so infectious
Your voice so sublime
Your heart so full of love
Pity it's not mine
You may not have noticed
Or you just did not care
"I love You", I said
A whisper you did not hear...

2006-08-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

A sunny smile, on a rainy day,butterfly kisses, A sweet hug and kiss, bedtime snuggles.
These are some of the best things about being in love

A Glimpse of Love

2006-08-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

It was me seeing through him when he first spoke
It was that first conversation that felt like I could tell you anything
It was us being together at every perfect time
It was how it felt like everything was happening for a reason
It was fate like I've never seen it before

It was the comfortable silence we always had
It was not listening to world around us but listening to our hearts
It was when the sky seemed so blue and the stars seemed so bright
It was that first innocent sweet kiss when the world seemed frozen for a second

It was us finding somthing beautiful in all our imperfections
It was so very unconditional
It was you saying something perfect at every perfect time
It was when I felt your heart pounding out of your chest

It was being so confused but enjoying the confusion
It was the way you rubbed my head when I felt lost
It was letting our souls open up when it was time to open
It was how you made me feel so beautiful and special

It was being so afraid of it yet being so blinded by it
It was how everything happened so fast and felt like a blessing
It was the way you looked at me so innocently that's like a picture in my mind
It was A GLIMPSE OF LOVE!

A SUNSET AND SHELLS

2006-08-13T11:00:00.000-07:00

Walking hand in hand together
No words need be spoken
The sunset and shells speak for us
Not wanting the spell to be broken

“Love touches all things around us”
The shells begin to say
“Just stop, look and listen
To the beauty in every day”

The sunset cloaks us in its gentleness
Filling us with loves sensation
Time forever lost to the heavens
Our love frozen in perpetual motion

“Take these gifts as they are given”
The shells continue to say
“We give you our love and our wisdom
As we send you on your way”

Walking hand in hand together
No words need be spoken
We fade away into our sunset
Carrying a shell as a lasting token

A Woman's Dream....

2006-08-12T11:24:00.000-07:00

Every woman dreams of the perfect man,
who will stick by her and do all he can.
Every woman dreams of the perfect one,
who will make her laugh and bring her fun.
Every woman dreams of her perfect prince,
who will grab her and give that to die for kiss.
every woman dreams of that perfect male,
the one she knows will be by her and never bail.
Some women dream so long it comes true,
I wonder if that is how I got you!

"You Walked Lightly"

2006-08-08T11:08:00.000-07:00

You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely, to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I don’t know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
You’re passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.

All I Can't Say

2006-08-01T02:30:00.000-07:00

A blank piece of paper
Of feelings I can't express
Filled with my emotions
And feelings I can't repress

I don't know how to say it
So I'm trying to write it down
I open my mouth to tell you
But I utter not a sound

How can mere words from my heart
Even begin to explain?
But not being able to make you understand
Is easily my greatest pain

In my heart you will stay
And in my heart you will continue to grow
I will love you now and always
More than you could possibly ever know

And I Think of You..

2006-08-01T00:38:00.000-07:00

In the morning.. the sun shines,
I stood up, looking outside..
watchin the green fields and flowers..
i think of you...

As i pass by the road,
I stopped for a moment
I watch the clouds, so pure..
then i think of you...

Walkin around... watching the skies at night
I looked at the stars.. oh so bright
I glanced at the moon, so beautiful..
And i think of you..

When i close my eyes to dream,
there's a vision of a man,
I looked at him carefully..
and it appears to be you.

Most of my time spent,
It was you in my mind..
Most of my reasons to live,
It is all because of you..

As I Sit On The Sands

2006-07-31T13:51:00.000-07:00

The waves never tire of their dance
Coming and going together
As though possessing all chance
To entertain the world forever
The horizon never parts with the sea
In faithfulness neverending
Just as the day after eternity
My love will still be burning
I search for things I don't know
As I sit on the sands
Hearing whispers, feeling the wind blow
Gathering the clouds in my hands
Oh, how unlike the tranquil sea
This storm brewing inside of me.

An Island of Dreams

2006-07-31T13:30:00.000-07:00

You took me there
to my island of dreams
where anything is possible
and nothing as it seems

The trip was so bountiful
with much more than you think
I went with eyes wide open
so much, I was afraid to blink

Knowing that this journey
had time ticking away
You remember how I hestitated
because I could not stay

But the island held a wish
and even had my name
though it’s sand ran thru so quickly
you have only me to blame

A Setting Sun

2006-07-31T06:38:00.000-07:00

I saw the sun set today.
It’s beautiful colors
cascading the evening sky.
As the sun lowered,
I watched with amazement
As the colors
and the sky it self had changed.
So different, yet just as beautiful
A different shade of orange or purple,
the clouds subtly change places and shapes.
And as each moment passed I watch how slowly
and how subtle the changes were.
The clouds were always moving and changing,
The colors moving from one shade to the next .
It was beautiful to watch.
And then I thought of YOU
I was distracted from the beauty for only a moment.
The changes that occurred were no longer subtle and amazing
It was abrupt, as if looking at a different sky
Maybe a different day, either way,
the moment was gone I was not one with the sky
Yes the sunset was still beautiful,
but the distraction took something away.
I turned for just a moment
and I was no longer part of the sky
and it’s slow moving dance across the sky.
I tried to get the moment back,
but it was different.
The warm feeling I felt was missing.
This was a new music that started in a different place.
As I sat and watched the sunset slide into the darkness,
I felt as if I had been here before.
And then I thought of YOU

A wish of mine

2006-07-24T11:52:00.000-07:00

I wish upon a star,
to be wherever you are.
hoping it would come true,
I only wanted to be with you.
you are my eternal light,
In the endless night.
thought of you make me smile,
thought of you make me cry.
everyday my love grow stronger,
and another tear is added with the other.

Chapters in the midnight sky

2006-07-21T03:55:00.000-07:00

Once I pronounced their eloquence
of beauty , rich and dainty
Twice I gaze into the midnight sky
their scripture still does prompt me

No longer are they encased
or linger in the pages of my mind
instead archival in their presence
referenced - "when I was blind"

Forming a reminiscent constellation
each has a name scribed by the wind; above
by one name I chose to label them all
they are each aptly called - "love"

So when I moon over the contents
of my library cast high
as soon as the horizon begins to wink
Surely enough the heavens they cry
to wash away the evanescent ink

Always

2006-07-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

The sun is going behind the horizon
As the stars begin to appear
The world is changing right before me
Reminding me things will not
Always be this way
No matter the loneliness I feel
You will call me again
I will be okay
You will not always be gone
I wish you were here
To see the stars above me
Where you are, the sun shines
When I am in darkness
When you awake
I am just laying my head down
Upon the soft pillow below me
But still there is one thing
That I can always count on
One thing we both do at the same time
Whether day or night
Asleep or awake
When you think of me
I am always…always
Thinking of you.

Flowers and Clouds

2006-07-19T02:29:00.000-07:00

Blue skies, clouds of cotton and fluff,
The breeze gently blowing by the sweet smell
Of spring.
Flowers bloom and birds sing,
The sweet fragrance they give from
Ev’ry petal, dances about my head.
Memories of you are there too, fondly remembered.
You being there gives me purpose to be, purpose
To go on. Even the sweetness of spring makes
Your memories fonder, much sweeter than I could
Ever have them be.
Days stood still when you left,
My heart broke, my spirit was crushed.
So close, yet you are so far.
Memories of you are all that’s left for me,
I never said the right things, I refused to
Open myself up, and now that you’re gone,
There's nothing I can do, but wait..
Until u bring back the clouds n flowers
.... in my life!

Don't Let The Sun Catch Her Crying

2006-07-17T06:53:00.000-07:00

When shadows of the night surround
and heartache comes again to call
Softly into a satin pillow
her tears begin to fall

Dreams won't come
Memories won't go
The night holds
the aches of
long, long ago

Too fresh to forget
Too intense to recall
They come without mercy
invading her all

Not hiding in the shadows
of the night as they should
Why can't they bring smiles
as she hoped they would

Pillow-cased through the night
wrapped in an ache of their own
Don't let the sun catch her crying
Dry her tears before break of dawn

New memories in the making
on the day in shades of umber
Dawning on new dreams
propelling her through her slumber

Don't let the sun catch her crying
For the day should bring her glee
When shadows of the new night come
I trust she'll think of thee.

2006-07-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

My Brother

2006-07-08T10:39:00.000-07:00

His meticulous ways,
Of putting things away,
His mischevious grin,
Justifies the worst of sins,
His dark compassionate eyes hold tightly onto many a secret.
His mind is always moving, wandering, questioning, and I'd never forget.
The calming gentle touch on my head by his fingertips,
Those sensible words mentioned by his witty lips,
He's a smart one, this respectable man,
I strongly doubt there's anything he cannot understand,
He who patiently listens, absorbs, and reflects,
He whose will always remains firm to his ground,
Impressionable, skeptical, and critical,
I am one of the many he effects,
We are there for the other,
My friend and I - sister and brother.

The Day Without Me

2006-07-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

If the day happens to begin without me
I urge you not to let your tears fall for me
Know that I’m watching you while I depart
Now I ask you to be brave
Hold that beautiful smile on your face
New journey after life had been opened up for me
Never away-never apart from you
I’m closer to you than you may think
Waiting for you to join me in this path of eternity..

Believe in Love

2006-07-03T22:37:00.000-07:00

You told me from the start
that it was your love i would see.
You've opened up something in Me.
You've touched a special place in my heart.
You always believed in me from the start.
Now its your love, and kind words
I long to hear when we're apart.
Just when my heart put up a shield,
guarding me from a heartbroken past.
You've shown me a wonderful love
and a wonderful life with you
is what i need at last.
It's your love i want to cuddle up to at night.
For my love i know that
this love i feel for you is so right.
When we talk you make me laugh,
if only you could see the smiles.
For the only thing that keeps me from you
is the distance and the miles.
We both believe this love can be true.
So when in doubt, believe in me as i believe in you
and neither one of us will be feeling blue!!!!!

All Paths Led Me To You

2006-07-03T11:01:00.000-07:00

All the paths of my life,
Have led me to this place,
All the visions I have had,
Have prepared me for thy face.

All paths led me to you,
Under the sky so blue,
You are the sun in my sky,
In my dreams it's always been you.

All paths led me here,
At the time and this place,
To look within your eyes,
And find the mystery of my life. :)

A brightest star in the sky

2006-07-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

In the Sky, there is million of stars,
But there is one and only one brightest star.
A star that shine up my lonely heart,
Pulling us together than keep us apart.

A lonely night that I feel alone,
You are the one that shine me up all along.
My nights are cold, lonely and meek
You are my strength, without you I am weak.

Sometimes Im so lonely that make me dream,
A picture of you is all I see in my dream.
My heart is beating 10 times as fast,
Every time that I see you pass.

Simple things about you catch my heart,
How do I know? Because I follow my true heart.
My heart is honest and cannot lie,
Things you have done that still in my mind.

A word I write is all I thought,
A thought I think could not be fought.
And you are my only one brightest star,
A brightest star that shine within my heart.

Stumbled upon a real nice toast:-

2006-07-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

"Here's to one and only one,
And may that one be thee
Who loves but one and only one,
And may that one be me."

2006-06-26T11:39:00.000-07:00

TAKE MY HAND

Yesterday you asked me something
I thought you knew
So i told you with a smile
Its all about you
Then you whispered in my ear
And you told me too
Said you make my life worthwhile
Its all about you

And i would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me your love
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close to your heart
And say those three words
Like you always do
Dancing in the misty dreams
Is all about you

AND HOLD IT TIGHT

Each Night

2006-06-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

Each night when I have closed my eyes
My thoughts fly through the moonlit skies
And though you are beyond my sight
I whisper cross the void “Good Night”
And I miss you

And during times when we’re apart
With miles between our beating hearts
I think about you all the time
I always have you on my mind
And I miss you

But I know that you miss me too
And once my time away is through
Oh! That time would speed it’s way
And bring around that wondrous day
When I’m with you.

As I Sit On The Sands

2006-06-24T19:57:00.000-07:00

The waves never tire of their dance
Coming and going together
As though possessing all chance
To entertain the world forever
The horizon never parts with the sea

In faithfulness neverending
Just as the day after eternity
My love will still be burning
I search for things I don't know

As I sit on the sands
Hearing whispers, feeling the wind blow
Gathering the clouds in my hands
Oh, how unlike the tranquil sea
This storm brewing inside of me.

There's You....

2006-06-24T13:04:00.000-07:00

A day so cold and cloudy,
To stay in bed is nothing new.
The chill of the air taunts me,
but then, I remember, there's you.

Now I fret my long hours,
At work there is so much to do.
I worry that it just might kill me,
but then, I remember, there's you.

I return to my bed alone,
I fret, even though the day is through.
My eyes hide from the world around me,
and then, I remember, there's you.

That thing you do . . .

2006-06-22T08:49:00.000-07:00

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move you make

You're an angel from above
who takes away my pain
My love for you is so strong
It's always just the same

You're the miracle in my life
Who can always make me smile
Just knowing that you care
Makes my life worth-while

You've touched my heart and soul
Which you have from the start
Your warm soft words
Will never leave my heart

You are everything I want
You're so pure and true
I love you with everything I have
And I love everything that you do

A Prayer Said......

2006-06-19T21:43:00.000-07:00

At the end of the day,
Just before I go to bed,
Before I close my eyes,
I whisper a little prayer to God;

I pray for him to help me show
How I love you with all of my heart.

I whisper to him how much I need you here,
For him to give me the strength for me to be secure,
To feel that I'm the only one,
the one you ever need.

I whisper to Him a prayer of thank's,
Of having the chance to meet you.....
For offering you into my life
And for the chance of calling you my own.

I whisper to God I'll never give up on you,
No matter how hard it may ever seem.....
simply because we are countries apart.....

I whisper a little prayer to God
To keep you safe and out of harms way
To give you strength in whatever comes your way
To show you my love is real
And to take away all your fears.

I pray in his name.....
Amen

A Piece of Magic

2006-06-18T21:07:00.000-07:00

Love is like magic, and it will always be,
For Love still remains life's sweet mystery.
Love works in ways that are wondrous and strange,
there's nothing in life that Love cannot change.
Love can transform the most common place
into beauty, wonder, splender and grace.
Love is unselfish,understanding and kind.
For it sees with it's heart and not with it's mind.
Love gives and forgives,
there's nothing too much for Love to heal,
For Love is a language that every heart speaks.
For Love is a language that every heart seeks.

A DREAMER IN DAYLIGHT

2006-06-15T11:16:00.000-07:00

I sit up late at night..
I close my eyes so very tight..
My mind drifts away..
As I picture a bright and shinny day..
There you are..
Standing not that far..
Your eyes so beautiful..
Just like two shinning stars..
As you smile..
A very beautiful smile..
My heart fly's for miles..
As day quickly fades to night..
You grab my hand so very tight..
We walk on a moonlit beach..
With the stars shinning so bright..
God this feels so right..
As we walk for miles holding hands..
We walk through the moist white sand..
I turn my head..
And see an angel..
I try to speak but my words are tangled..
As you softly speak into my ear..
I hear..Three words I hold so dear..
I open my eyes that I held so tight..
And my face and heart shines so bright..
As I say to my self I Love You...
And, Goodnight!

An Ever Enduring Love...

2006-06-14T06:58:00.000-07:00

Love is like the warm summer wind,
It always whispers softly in your ear,
Love is like a place of worship,
It never loses faith, hope, or its touch,
Love never favors one thing or another,
Love embraces one another,
Love is like the warm summer sun,
It is always bright,
Love is fun,
You never want to leave your love’s side,
Love is sadness,
Love can hurt no matter how strong you love someone,
Love in its purest form equals content ness,
Love does not believe in free will but fate,
Love never goes away,
Even if the world consumes you and you wish it would just go away,
Love does not follow,
Love leads,
Love gives hope to the hopeless,
Love is generous,
Only if you knew in so many ways,
Love makes one strive for the next day to see what it holds,
If you look carefully you will find that precious pearl,
Love never says no but opens up and experiences new things,
Knowing that your love is there to hold you when you are down,
Love is like an ocean it never ceases to cold,
If you listen gently it will tell you a new secret each day.
to learn and to hold..

hey, someone sent this.. n i couldnt stop myself from uploading it here..

2006-06-14T06:20:00.000-07:00

You're like the Sun..

2006-06-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

You're like the Sun,
on the sky above.
Giving life to every soul..
here on earth.

You shine and smile,
for your fame and might.
When you say am wrong,
I say, ''You're right!''

You can see everyone,
and care for them too..
You cannot ever see me..
coz am right behind you.

In a darker sky,
far far away,
As a night comes,
only when there ends a day.

Am one of a million
others in the sky,
flickering like twinkles,
in your eyes..

The world remains the same,
yet for you there is no me..
and for me,
There is no one but you! :)

nams

A Gift of Your Heart

2006-05-31T01:24:00.000-07:00

You've touched my heart with the gift of your love
A pure and sacred blessing sent from up above
I love what you do for me and how you make me feel
And each day my heart you continuously steal

You've taught me to love and to trust once again
You are life's greatest gift and my true friend
I appreciate what you do for me each and every day
Forever in my heart you'll always stay

I'm your friend, your love, and your comfort
You're the beating force of my heart
I'll be there you forever from this day forward
We're blessed and will never be apart

As we embark upon our journey - the future is ours
It's written in our smiles and shown in heaven's stars
I'm here for you always, to share and care,
It's the start forever as our love will always be there..

2006-05-23T05:09:00.000-07:00

A Thousand Fair Suitors

A thousand fair suitors all stab at your heart
Those poets of movement and jockeys of art
The high-volume vendors who hustle romance
Splashing their canvas with color and dance

The blasters of trumpets, gold banners unfurled
They offer lush gardens in glistening worlds
Yes, bearers of torches and carvers of stone
Who whisper their sonnets and surrender their thrones

And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast
No lingering voices, no ghosts from the past
Just a cluster of walls, and a window of pain
Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain

Still I stand before you, with palms to the sky
No gold in my pocket, no thorn in my side
And all I can offer, where words have no place
Is a body that trembles, and this love that awaits..

The Withdrawal

2006-05-22T21:17:00.000-07:00

I don’t quite know what to say,

But I’ll say this if I may,

That I’ve cried for your love till tears would no longer flow,

And I have tried my darndest to let you go.
It ravaged my soul when you said Good Bye,

It hit me so hard, I thought I would die.

Alas, your love hath cast me in an intractable dye,

And it brazenly lived on, and so did I.
To empty my soul of you has been my worst ordeal,

How dumb of me to think,

That if all this pain could buy me peace at the end,

It would still be a fair deal.
Now that I am empty,

and nothingness abounds,

I want you to come and fill me again.

I want to redo the pleasure and pain.

If only to see myself lose you again,

To cry, to twitch, to writhe in pain.
Just this once, I want to be sure,

This time I want to succumb to the malaise,

Knowing that there ain’t any cure.
Nothingness fills my being this day,

No feeling, not a thought wafts in,

No hope, or despair I sense,

Just vacuum fills the air..
No more tears, no more lies,

Thank God and Good riddance,

To all the sobs and cries..

I THOUGHT

2006-05-21T06:04:00.000-07:00

IT WAS YOU

I'd searched so long for the one;

the one who would know me, Inside out,

I knew if I found him my whole world would change

— that no matter the cost, I would run through the pain.

I'm sorry…I thought it was you.

He would gaze at me in the night and share words of passionate prose.

We would wile away the hours and the years together, at ease.

He would never doubt my love and I would be his to own forever.

So sorry…I thought it was you.

The one I dreamt of knew my ways

and understood the varied beat and rhythm, that my life retreat upon.

We would spend our days as friends, working our way through the strife

and worry that breeds in this world. A pity…it wasn't you.

I would have traveled the whole world to be with the one I have dreamt of.

I would have forsaken all that I have, burning the memories of the past

and walk towards his, and my life.

But I was sketchily mistaken, I guess it’s sad…coz I thought it was you.

LIFE...

2006-04-23T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hey ya,
Everytime you visit my blog there's a poem waiting to be read. But this time i had different plans for you..

Ever wondered how small things in life prove to be a great learning
experience? This fortnight we would like to share a small story with you.
It might change the way you look at life.

A son and his father were walking on the mountains. Suddenly, his son
falls, hurts himself and screams:
"AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the
mountain: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
He receives the answer: "Coward!"

He looks to his father and asks: "What's going on?"
The father smiles and says: "My son, pay attention."
Again the man screams: "You are a champion!"
The voice answers: "You are a champion!"
The boy is surprised, but does not understand.

Then the father explains: "People call this ECHO, but really this is
LIFE. It gives you back everything you say or do. Our life is simply a
reflection of our actions. If you want more love in the world, create
more love in your heart. If you want more competence in your team, improve
your competence. This relationship applies to everything, in all
aspects of life; Life will give you back everything you have given to it."
Curious, he yells: "Who are you?"
He receives the answer: "Who are you?"
And then he screams to the mountain: "I admire you!"
The voice answers: "I admire you!"
Angered at the response, he screams: "Coward!"
"YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT'S A REFLECTION OF YOU!"

Love ALWAYS Nams...

moi masterpiece

2006-03-13T20:32:00.000-08:00

Let's make a deal...................

2006-03-13T20:13:00.000-08:00

You forgive me for LIKING YOU too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.
You forgive me for MISSING YOU so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.
You forgive me for the LOUD RACING of MY HEART,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.
You forgive me for PLAYING YOUR GAMES,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.
You forgive me for finding you SO ATTRACTIVE,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.
You forgive me for RAISING YOU up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.
You forgive me for WANTING TO BE WITH YOU all the time,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.
You forgive me for BEING SO PATHETIC,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.
You forgive me for not being able TO LET GO,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.
You forgive me for having HOPES AND DREAMS,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

By The Candles Light

2005-08-02T03:07:00.000-07:00

By the candles light....
I drift onto a dreams delight
I see you and me on an island
way beyond the oceans and seas
The flames by the candles light
bring to memory the suns bright gleam
The sense of the rays layin upon our bodies
A gleam of you holdin me....
The intense bright orange flames
reminiscences of the glow from our bodies
Souls combine and hearts beflight...
..Just as the candles light starts to burn oh so bright.....
The flames represent our love....
.So strong, so true, and so bright....
.An eternal flame I hope it remains.....
I awaken by early morn'
to find the candles light still burns
still oh so bright.....

A Perfect World

2005-06-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

I once was asked
To describe a perfect world.
I sat and thought
My mind all awhirl.
Flowers forever in bloom
And blue skies came to mind
Chocolate covered anything
(whatever I could find)
Kitty cats and puppy dogs
And little kids galore
Showers on a summer day
Who could ask for more?
Fireflies and butterflies
And crickets in the night
Sitting in a lily field
Watching ladybugs take flight
I could go on and on all day
About things that I find true

But this world was far from perfect
'til the day that I met you.

By The Seashore

2005-06-23T09:38:00.000-07:00

Walks on the beach
Salt in the air
Sun shining brightly
The wind in your hair
Gathering treasures
Searching the shore
Finding seashells and
Looking for more
Holding your hand
A smile on my face
No where on earth
Is there a better place
Magical sunset
Beautiful skies
Holding your hand
Looking in your eyes
Strolling along
With you by my side
My best friend,
Companion, and guide
Walking with you
By the seashore
Times like these
Are what i long for

All About You

2005-06-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

In a world of darkness,
You are my light.
Blinded by ignorance,
You are my sight.
When I am sad,
You are my cheer.
The love that you give,
Will remain ever dear.

In a world of confusion,
You are my thought.
A love like yours,
My heart always sought.
Alone without you could be my end,
Across the miles my love i shall send.

You are my strength,
When I am too weak.
You're like a lion,
When I am too meek.

You bring out the better half of my soul,
To be without you would take it's toll.
And thus as I reflect upon you,
I know that I've found a love that is true.

Accept Me As I Am

2005-06-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

I am the defiant one
Who beats her own drum,
I dance within the moonlight
And play beneath the sun.
I conform to no one's rules
I am a woman of my own,
Before I'd bend beneath your will
I'll learn to stand alone.
My heart is my own
I give you no control,
I am who I am
And I am a woman whole.
I toss aside your claims
That I belong to you,
For I belong unto myself
To my own self I'll be true.
I am a woman strong and proud
I live by a moral code,
Internal strength my victory
I can shoulder any load.
I allow no one to own me
I'm not some prize to be won,
I stand firm in my convictions
When each day is done.
This life I live is mine
To share with whom I choose,
Never try to change me
For I'm not a pair of shoes.
And if I give my love to you
I'll come just as I am,
You can't lead my soul to slaughter
Like some meek and gentle lamb.
I am just who I am
Accept just what you see,
I have a world of love to give
If you can love just me.
Don't compare me to another
I'm not some clay for you to mold,
Don't put a chain upon my spirit
For it's not yours to hold.
Inside I am beautiful
Let my spirit fly free,
It will forever be with yours
If you can accept just me.

nature

2005-06-22T10:45:00.000-07:00

Nature has left me amazed of love,
-How numerous are the ways of love,
How does the Spider know how to spin a web?
The same instincts make me crazed of love,
How do Pigeons fly blindly back to their roost?
I'm led to you through this maze of love,
Like the sad Rosebud crying her morning dew,
Fleeting are our youthful days of love,
When the Clouds burst forth leaving the earth refreshed,
All of the world weeps in praise of love,
Like the stealth of a Tiger viewing her prey,
How silently I have prayed of love,
In a sky full of stars,
I choose you as my Moon,
What more is there to say of love?

2005-06-22T10:44:00.000-07:00

Standing by, All the way.
Here to help you through your day.
Holding you up, When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.
Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.
Absorbing your voice When you talk.
Standing by u when u learn to walk.
Just being there,
Through thick and thin,We will fight n we will win!
Dont really know if its early to say,
But we both are here to stay.

A Love Lost

2005-06-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

I miss u With every breath I take
I want u
With every fiber of my being
I need u
To quench the thirst I feel inside
I desire u
To fill the hunger only you can provide
The soothing voice,
the sound of laughters
The uttered words,
its calming effect
The thoughtfull gestures,
so unexpected
The sudden changes,
the turn of events
Numb, pain filled,
amidst the smiles conjured
The sorrow, the agony like a knife buried deep
No questions, no demands just a finality
A love lost,
left with nothing but memories.

the last thought..

2005-04-12T22:19:00.000-07:00

I know that the day will come when,

my sight of this earth shall be lost,

and lifewill take its leave in silence,

drawing the last curtain over my eyes.
Yet stars will watch at night and

morning rise as before

and hours heave like sea waves

casting up pleasures and pains.
When I think of this end of my moments,

the barrier of the moment breaks and I see

by the light of death

thy world with its careless treasures.

Rare is ites lowliest seat,

rare is its meanest of lives.
Things that I long for in vain

and things that I got-- let them pass.

Let me but truly possess the things

that I ever spurned and overlooked.
Let me feel that love my lord,

that I once gave to him.

and I will see many a deaths dear lord

but let them be..for him.
Do not know if he even thinks of me,

in the darkest of hours or brightest of smiles,

i have no clue.

All i wish selfishly now,

is when i take my last breath

..let it be with you.

if it isnt....

2005-04-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

If it is not my portion to meet thee in this life,

then let me ever feel that I have missed thy sight.

Let me not forget for a moment,

let me carry the pangs of this sorrow in my dreams,

and in my wakefull hours.
For days I wait and nights i cried,

I know not where thee dwells,

I know not who thy love is.

All I know for now and forever,

is that my love once is now lost.
I do not cry for thee my love,

I do not cry for thee my lord.

I sit beneath the shadow of destiny,

waiting for the mist of tears to dry.

coz thats when my soul be free to fly.

dear love..

2005-04-12T21:56:00.000-07:00

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms,

numberless times,

In life after life, in age after age forever.

My spell-bound heart has made and re-made the necklace of songs

That you take as a gift, make use for awhile,

n keep it away, as an antique once graced.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love,

its age-old pain,

its ancient tale of being apart and together,

As I stare on and on into the past,

In the end you emerge.

Clad in the light of a pole-star,

piercing the darkness of time.

You and I have floated here on the stream,

that brings from the fount.

At the heart of time love of one for another.

We have played alongside millions of lovers,

shared in the sameshy sweetness of meeting,

the same distressfull tears of farewell,

Old love, but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

You have become an image,

of what is remembered forever in my heart.

And an image that has dwelt tears,

in these eyes... far and apart.

about him..

2005-04-08T11:42:00.000-07:00

He who ever had remained in the depth of my being,
in the twilight of gleams and of glimpses;
Words have wooed yet failed to win him,
persuasion has stretched to him its eager arms in vain.
I have roamed from country to country,
keeping him in the core of my heart,
and around him have risen and fallen
the growth and decay of my life.
Over my thoughts and actions,
my slumbers and dreams,
he reigned yet dwelled alone and apart.

my baby

2005-04-07T23:08:00.000-07:00

The sleep that flits on my baby's eyes---
Does anybody know from where it comes?
Yes, there is a rumour that it has its dwelling where,
in the fairy village among shadows of the forest
dimly lit with glow worms, there hangs two timid buds
of enchantment. From there
it comes to kiss my baby's eyes.

The smile that flikers on my baby's lips when he sleeps--
Does anybody know where it was born?
Yes, there is a rumour that a young pale beam
of a crescent moon touched the edge of a vanishing
autumn cloud, and there the smile was first born
in the dream of a dew washed morning--
the smile that flikers on my baby's lips when he sleeps.

The sweet, soft freshness that blooms on my baby's limbs--
Does anybody know where it was hidden so long?
Yes, when i was a young girl it lay
pervading my heart in tender and silent mystery
of love--the sweet, soft freshness
that has bloomed on my baby's limbs.

Dear God..

2005-04-07T23:01:00.000-07:00

What divine drink would thou have, my god,
from this overflowing cup of my life?
My poet, is it thy delight to see thy creation
through my eyes and to stand at the portals
of my ears, silently to listen
to thine own eternal harmony?

The world is weaving words in my mind
and thy joy is adding music to them.
Thou givest thyself to me in love and then
feelest thine own entire sweetness in me..

A Dreamer

2005-04-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

To you,
my mind will always stray.
And in my dreams,
your eyes beckon dolefully.
In truth,
you find you cannot stay.
You look,
but not for me,
in dreams of lovers,
by the sea.
Somwhere I am set afloat,
no sight of land.
No hope, of embrace,
by my sweet long passed on.
Somewhere waves crash,
and I wait for you,
to look for me again.
To dream of my eyes,
beckoning you.

his..Apologies

2005-04-07T03:04:00.000-07:00

Will try to catch up tomorrow
If not I will drop you a line
I have heard this all before
Its been said time after time

Another one of his let downs
Later he will try to explain
Saying his week was busy
Apologies all sound the same

Am I the last thing on his mind
It seemed that way to me
Another promise is broken
I receive yet another apology

Each one repeats like an echo
Apologies sent with regrets
What was he trying to justify
When I am the one he forgets

2005-04-05T00:09:00.000-07:00

Thou hast left death for my companion
and i shall crown him with my life.
Thy sword is with me to cut asunder my bonds,
and there shall be no fear left for me in the world.

From now i leave off all petty decorations.

Lord of my heart,
no more shall there be
for me waiting and weeping in corners,
no more shy and soft of demeanour.
Thou hast given me thy sword for adornment.
No more bride's decorations for me.

eyes wide shut..

2005-04-05T00:01:00.000-07:00

Ah, my sleep, precious sleep,
which only waits for his touch to vanish.
Ah, my closed eyes
that would open their lids only
to the light of his smile
when he stands before me like a dream
emerging from darkness of sleep.

Let him appear before my sight
as the first of all lights and forms.
The first thrill of joy to my awakened soul
let it come from his glance.
And let my return to myself be
immediate return to him.

the wait..

2005-04-01T20:32:00.000-08:00

Oh, how, indeed, could i tell them
that for thee i wait, and that thou
hast promise to come. How could i
utter for shame that i keep for my dowry
this poverty. Ah i hug this pride
in the secret of my heart.

I sit on the grass and gaze upon the sky
and dream of the sudden splendour of thy coming--
all the lights ablaze, golden penons flying over thy car,
and they at the roadside standing agape!

let only...

2005-03-30T20:46:00.000-08:00

Let only that little be left of me whereby

I may name thee my all.

Let only that little be left of my will whereby

I may feel thee on every side,and come to thee in everything,

and offer to thee my love every moment.

Let only that little be left of me whereby

I may never hide thee.

Let only that little of my fetters be left whereby

I am bound with thy will, and thy purpose is

carried out in my life----and that is the fetter of thy love.

when it rains..

2005-03-30T20:37:00.000-08:00

Clouds heap upon clouds and it darkens,
Ah, love, why dost thou let me wait
outside at the door all alone?

In the busy moments of the moontide work
Iam with the crowd, but on this dark lonely day
it is only for thee that I hope.

If thou showest me not thy face, if thou leavest me
wholly aside, I know not how i am to pass these long, rainy hours.

I keep staring at the far away gloom of the sky,
and my heart wanders wailing with the restless wind.

its when u feel, u write...

2005-03-30T20:34:00.000-08:00

its when u feel, u write...

I am only waiting for love to give myself up at last
into his hands. That is why it is so late
and why i have been guilty of such ommisions.

They come with their laws and their codes
to bind me fast; but i evade them ever,
for I am only waiting for love
to give myself up atlast into his hands.