The Withdrawal

I don’t quite know what to say,

But I’ll say this if I may,

That I’ve cried for your love till tears would no longer flow,

And I have tried my darndest to let you go.
It ravaged my soul when you said Good Bye,

It hit me so hard, I thought I would die.

Alas, your love hath cast me in an intractable dye,

And it brazenly lived on, and so did I.
To empty my soul of you has been my worst ordeal,

How dumb of me to think,

That if all this pain could buy me peace at the end,

It would still be a fair deal.
Now that I am empty,

and nothingness abounds,

I want you to come and fill me again.

I want to redo the pleasure and pain.

If only to see myself lose you again,

To cry, to twitch, to writhe in pain.
Just this once, I want to be sure,

This time I want to succumb to the malaise,

Knowing that there ain’t any cure.
Nothingness fills my being this day,

No feeling, not a thought wafts in,

No hope, or despair I sense,

Just vacuum fills the air..
No more tears, no more lies,

Thank God and Good riddance,

To all the sobs and cries..